I made it!

Whew!! I made it through Christmas with only a few tears! I just tried really hard to put things out of my mind because I needed to play with my nieces and nephews and have fun! Luckily, we don't really have any babies in the family and I can't see any new babies coming anytime soon for anyone else, so that makes it easier. So I played Polly Pockets, monsters and made a fort. I am a cool aunt! :)
On Christmas Eve, I paid for the person in back of me at Tim Horton's. I've always wanted to do that and it felt so good to do! Even though I didn't get to see their faces, I hope it made their day! :)
What I haven't been so good at is eating right. My dh's mom sends all of the Christmas leftovers home with us and guess who has to have something EVERY TIME she goes into the kitchen, yeah that's right, me, Miss Piggy! I really have to get back on track so that I can at least kinda, sorta fit into my pants when I go back to work.
In other news, I joined a Fantasy Football League for the first time this year and was in the "Super Bowl" against my dh. I won! So fun! I think I even get a trophy!

Fertility news~ We had another BFN from IUI w/IVIG in November. Dr. Kwak in Chicago doesn't ever really have anything to say when we have a failed cycle, so that's a bit annoying. If I contact them, they'll say that she'll let me know if there needs to be changes once I cycle again. But why do you think this cycle didn't work?
My younger sister said that she would donate some of her eggs to me, which I thought was a great idea, but they may be too similar to mine and we could have the same problems.
I met with my doctor and he's willing to try donor, although he won't actually perform the IVF, because he doesn't believe in it for religious reasons, but he said that he will personally talk to the other doctors and see what he can do about cost. He still really wants me to consider a surrogate, but we still have the same problem. I don't know anyone who would do it! I keep telling him that and every time I meet with him he asks how old my mother is. It's actually quite funny. She's almost 60! She would totally do it if she could though! :)
I also had a phone consult with the famous Dr. Schoolcraft from CO. I wasn't sure what to expect and to be honest, I was a little nervous, but we really liked him!
He said he didn't see any reason why I couldn't get pregnant with my own eggs and he'd like to try again. He also wants to do a test for the Beta-3 Integrin receptor. I guess if you don't have it, you may have problems with implantation. I've never heard of that, so we definitely want to check it out. He wants me to come for a 1-day workup. He also said that IVIG was hocus-pocus and of course, my dh agreed.
So now, here's the problem. I'd LOVE to go to Colorado and hope that they can work their magic. BUT I don't have $20- 30,000!
Do I go for the one day workup and at least see what they have to say? My mom says she'll pay for the airfare, but then what? Would it be better to just stay here and try my sister's eggs? I don't know how much that is, but I know it won't be $20,000...Should I just wait and try to save some money? I'm just not sure what to do and I wish I had a gut feeling about what to do! I'm just worried that if somehow we can find $ and do the CO thing, it won't work and then I won't be able to try anything else.

I really need to post more often. It feels good to write about my thoughts. Maybe that will help me make a decision!

:) Andrea