Okay, I'm going to do it

I met with my doctor today and for those who said I shouldn't have stuck with him for this long - you're wrong. He is a kind man who will try whatever we want and always tries to help. I told him that we wanted to try IVF and IVIG one time. That's about all we can do. IVF is expensive in itself and each time I get IVIG it will be over $2100. I've gained weight since we last checked, so it's probably closer to $2500. So I have to get IVIG during the conception cycle, once I get a positive pregnancy test and then possibly every 3 weeks after that. I keep thinking/praying about how we're going to pay for it, but I don't have an answer yet. I just know that it's summer and I have some time off. I need to try this now. I am anxious (by nature I think) and so I'm SUPER nervous, but it's now or never.

I'll be 34 in August. Time is ticking away. My doctor looked at me today and said, "So there's NO ONE that could be a surrogate?"
My answer was no. I don't have anyone. I wish I did, but I don't. It's me or no one.

So, he's having his nurse call me tomorrow. He said he'll do everything he can to give me a discounted rate so that I can put any extra money toward the IVIG, which I appreciate.

He also said that he has seen many more cycles with IVIG fail than succeed. He wasn't saying it to be negative, but honest. I appreciate his honesty, but I feel that we have to try it. I will regret it if I don't.

So finally, I asked how many embryos he'd be willing to transfer. He said it's up to us as long as we're aware of the risks. This summer marks our 6th year of trying. We're aware of the risks and quite frankly, I'm not too worried about it. I'm worried about a lot of things, but that is not one of them.

I'm excited, but very anxious. I'm really trying to be positive because I know that's what's best, but it's so hard. If you pray, please say a prayer for me. I could use all of the prayers I can get to help me through this.

:) Andrea